Slow death

I've been smoking waaay too much lately.  I used to smoke one or two cloves a week but now I'm going through a few a day.  Not a good habit but definitely helps the stress.  Although my meds are making huge differences there's just so much always happening.  I don't know why I let myself get back into a management position.  It's a lot of pressure even in a non corporate environment.

Things are interesting here at the shop now that J is leaving.  He's been upset about me taking the manager position since I first got here at the end of October.   I know that the biggest complaint is that I'm female and everyone has told me that's his big problem with me.  I think he thinks that leaving will encourage the owner to try to bring someone else in and put me out so he can come back.  That's not going to happen!

The owner wants me to tattoo more but at this point there isn't really a demand for it and I can't do all the piercing, tattooing, and managing no matter how hard I try.  I'm cool with tattooing some when there's time or requests specifically for me.  I just don't want to give up piercing considering I really enjoy it and it comes naturally for me.  Plus I'm finally making enough money to survive comfortably.

My boyfriend finally got the approval for his partial disability because of his mental health issues so that's really good news.  It's so hard to get approved for that kind of thing especially if it's not a physical disability so we're thankful that he did.  It's going to be a big reassurance for him since working full time is not an option.